Thursday, June 24, 2010
Friday, June 18, 2010
Wanna kill yourself?
honestly, there's nothing going on in my mind. some people want to kill themselves because they have so many problems to solve, so many people (and attitudes) to deal with, etc and what better way to break free from all these sickening things..? kill yourself! but this does not work for me.
if you've read the previous post, you'll know that i don't have anything to do in the office. well, sometimes, i mean at least every 7th-10th of the month, i'm busy but for the other 20days i'm free and literally doing nothing, but stare on the screen of my monitor, play cafe world, read some blogs about the latest trends and juiciest gossips (haha i've even finished watching gossip girl, complete 3 seasons. how cool was that?) and then pretend to be working for the rest of my 9hr-shift.
so, why do i thought of this topic? simply because i think this is the best and the most excruciating way to die. oh, what is 'this' pertaining to? no other than my work. if some people complain how toxic their work is, clearly they have not experienced working here, for this company, with these people. wow. it's like i've committed a sin that's not forgivable ever - that i am doomed for eternity. what else could be more painful than knowing that you have all the energy, the talent, the knowledge and the ability to do greater things (not only for yourself or for the company but most importantly for other people) but not being able to utilize them? i mean, it's like living for nothing at all.
so if you're gonna ask me what better way to kill yourself? apply here in our office. kidding! just do nothing. just waste your time staring at something. eat out a lot. and of course, don't use your mind so that your brain cells would die, one by one until they're all gone. hahahaha at least you're sure you'll die 'peacefully' and that you'll look fabulous inside the box. :)
if you've read the previous post, you'll know that i don't have anything to do in the office. well, sometimes, i mean at least every 7th-10th of the month, i'm busy but for the other 20days i'm free and literally doing nothing, but stare on the screen of my monitor, play cafe world, read some blogs about the latest trends and juiciest gossips (haha i've even finished watching gossip girl, complete 3 seasons. how cool was that?) and then pretend to be working for the rest of my 9hr-shift.
so, why do i thought of this topic? simply because i think this is the best and the most excruciating way to die. oh, what is 'this' pertaining to? no other than my work. if some people complain how toxic their work is, clearly they have not experienced working here, for this company, with these people. wow. it's like i've committed a sin that's not forgivable ever - that i am doomed for eternity. what else could be more painful than knowing that you have all the energy, the talent, the knowledge and the ability to do greater things (not only for yourself or for the company but most importantly for other people) but not being able to utilize them? i mean, it's like living for nothing at all.
so if you're gonna ask me what better way to kill yourself? apply here in our office. kidding! just do nothing. just waste your time staring at something. eat out a lot. and of course, don't use your mind so that your brain cells would die, one by one until they're all gone. hahahaha at least you're sure you'll die 'peacefully' and that you'll look fabulous inside the box. :)
i dont deserve this punishment.
What have i done to deserve this punishment? For the past week, i haven't done anything productive. i have been spending my 9hr-shift in the office watching gossip girl season 1 -3. what a way to kill time and my brain cells? do i really deserve this punishment? How long will this curse last? i have to admit, at first i love my job because the company's paying me for doing nothing- just sitting here in front of my computer pretending to prepare some reports for social media and the affiliate performance. Do they really think that it would take me one whole day to finish such reports? hahaha 10 minutes is more than enough to prepare three reports.
but now, after more than a year of pretenses, it caught up with me. i cant bear this curse anymore. as the days passed, i couldn't help but blame myself for accepting this position. I should be out there (wherever it is or whatever job it is that requires a person to think), using every knowledge and info that i've gained in my four years of stay in the ateneo. i can be a guidance councilor or a teacher or just a sub-teacher, i just need to take up some teaching units. i can be a marketing or sales person. i know i can do it, i've been taught how to come up with a good BS. simply put, i'm willing to have whatever position it is that would allow me hone my skills, improve myself and help other people, after all, i am a woman for others. :)
but now, after more than a year of pretenses, it caught up with me. i cant bear this curse anymore. as the days passed, i couldn't help but blame myself for accepting this position. I should be out there (wherever it is or whatever job it is that requires a person to think), using every knowledge and info that i've gained in my four years of stay in the ateneo. i can be a guidance councilor or a teacher or just a sub-teacher, i just need to take up some teaching units. i can be a marketing or sales person. i know i can do it, i've been taught how to come up with a good BS. simply put, i'm willing to have whatever position it is that would allow me hone my skills, improve myself and help other people, after all, i am a woman for others. :)
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